Prisoner

"Can you really ever get over some you loved??"- Sam.G.

Surrounded by four walls that contain me

I still want to win even though I have lost

Caught in this cycle of back on forth

I can’t explain the feeling of not knowing

How much pain, a love can cost



I never think twice

But I can’t seem to stop thinking of you

So I pedal backwards

Retreat in my steps, and erase you

I know I can’t move forward

If I keep looking back, at the rearview



I have to move on

Best now than later

But better late than never

But never late is better

because I’m still going to arrive

To that place where I got high

to balance out the lows

that you have caused



My competitive nature has altered its route

I am not a second option,

My option is to do right

If Pain is weakness leaving the body

So why don’t you just go away

I spent so many nights wishing

For tomorrow to be that day



I tell myself I don’t care for you

But when my mind attempts deception

My perceptions rats me out

Lays me bare in front of my insecurities

And has my emotions tie me down

I’m a prisoner of my own mind

A captive of your love



I fight these shackles off

That keep me in love with you

In love with the pain

In love with the same creature

That drove Adam Insane



He made a mistake

And betrayed who he is

for who his heart ached for

who am I to blame you for?

the things I cant stop myself to do

so, I say you hold me captive

but it’s me who can’t let go of you!